Benjy Fenwick

Hexed Very Private
Um. Wow.
Apparently I've really been missing out all these years. I didn't think I'd ever had particularly bad sex but apparently what I thought was great was apparetly just sub-standard.


Wow.

I really need a best friend I can talk/brag to about this. You know, one that isn't the girl in question. Damnit.
/Private

Dev
I lo
I miss you already.

I managed to get ink on the sleeve of my new shirt today. It had to be the day I wore the white one, didn't I? How do Muggles live without cleaning spells? I'm suddenly glad my mum taught me them all from a young age.

Hope all the many new mums had a nice Mothers Day this weekend. Ours was pretty low key but it was nice to spend time with my family. I'm still feeling the after effects of too much cake though.

Private
I'm happy for my friends, I really am, but I can't help feeling like I'm still stranded as the person I was when I left Hogwarts. I might have something resembling a career but that's about it. Everyone else is getting married and having children and I don't feel like I've achieved much at all.

And the one person I want to be with... well, that's far too complicated. I want to be able to just say what I feel but I'm not sure if she really feels the same way.
/Private

Private to Devin
I'm sorry if things were a bit awkward at the wedding but I liked being there with you. You even made me look like a decent dancer.

Did you still want to try for a real date?
/Devin

Private to Marlene and Remus
Congratulations again. The wedding was lovely. Especially that sorbet. I could eat a vat of it. In fact, I think I did.

Re: this:

Hexed Private to Nora
So, um, has Dev mentioned anything that may have happened the other night? Between her and me?

Because she's ignoring me now and I don't know what to do and I think I need female intervention.

Posted after this.

Private
Oh Merlin.



It suddenly dawns on me that I need another friend I can babble about personal things to.
It doesn't really work when its about the person I usually talk to.

Note to self - Dispose of the rest of the firewhiskey. If there's any left that is.




I can't believe she actually ki hit kissed and then hit me.

Fuck

Private to Devin
Are you busy tonight? Want to come over?
I want need to talk to you about something.

I don't know what to say.

Private to Xeno and Nora
Please let me know if I can do anything.

Private to Matilda
Hope you're okay.
Let me know if I can do anything for you at work. Or bring you anything. Not that you should probably be working at the moment but sometimes it helps to have a distraction.

I do believe I got a standing ovation for my rendition of 'The Rolling Stones' last night.
No, wait. That was the singer.
Either way, I was brilliant. Free pink drinks and all!
Many, many, many drinks.
Think some bloke was hitting on me too. Can't a guy just drink something tasty without having it mean something?


Fun night though.

Think I may still be a bit drunk

I thiiiink.
It's been a while.

Private to Devin
Oh no.

Good news is that Mum loved Tracey, thinks she's the cutest baby ever, and that I'm a lovely friend for taking her for you.

I had a nice day eating cake with my mum and watching her play with Trace, so all in all, it wasn't bad.

Bad news is that Mum had that look in her eye and when I left she said 'You know, I don't want to put any pressure on you but I always thought it would be lovely to have grandchildren'.

I knew it!
/Devin

Private
I am such an idiot. Be more ridiculous, Fenwick.
/Private

I had a pretty quiet day today. I spent half of it owling the printers to confirm bits and pieces and spent at least an hour imagining what my own book cover would look like. Truly, my name would look fantastic in swirly print on the cover of a book although I may have to go with 'Benjamin Fenwick'. I can actually picture it. Pity there'd only be half a story inside so in that case, I'd hope people would indeed judge a book by its cover. The cover would be fantastic.
Suppose I should actually finish it first...

Is it me or are there an awful lot of babies and children around at the moment? I've never had an overwhelming urge to have children myself. Maybe when I'm older. Children and I don't really get along anyway, although I'd like to think if I had my own children, they wouldn't be as scared of me as most children are. Clearly there's something evil about me that only children and dogs can see.

Is it possible to be genuinely addicted to tea? The witch who runs the cafe next door to us seems to think so and I believe she threatened to cut me off. Bit ridiculous really. The end result was that I ended up having lemonade with my lunch today instead and I think that's why I've had a headache all afternoon. Well, until I self-medicated with a white-one-sugar in one of the chipped blue mugs. Nothing fantastic, but better than nothing. I'm starting to think I should bring my own mugs in. I suspect I'll have to chain them to my desk, and possibly employ a guard dog, but tea tastes so much better out of them. I'm pretty sure someone's been stealing my proper tea too. I don't care what anyone else says - teabags are not the same.

Now that I've spent a paragraph discussing tea, I'm wondering if she had a point...

In other news, I'm pondering getting a pet. Owls just aren't friendly enough and you can't really have conversations with them. Not that you can with other animals either, but at least a cat would pretend to listen. I can only assume I somehow insulted the man at Eeylops back in first year since I'm pretty sure he sold me the grumpiest owl they had. Sorry, Sebastian, but it's true. I've seen other people with their owls and they don't blatantly ignore them or continually bite them. It did mean I knew my healing spells off by heart after a few months but I'd rather have a polite owl.
I'm thinking a cat would be nice.

( Benjy )